The Dr. visit.

What was it? 2 months ago? I had got a call from my GI Dr.'s office. His secretary tell me IF I don't allow them to put me through another completely unnecessary colonoscopy that they would cut OFF my Stelara prescription!

Uh, with aggressive Crohn's disease that's a literal death sentence. I was being blackmailed and extorted by my Dr. using medical terrorism (my life) as the threat. What CAN I do?

I go DEEP into "favor debt" and beg the one person who might actually take me and hold my hand the ENTIRE time, then take me home. When I explained the death-threats that I was given, he agreed. He actually was not o.k. with them murdering me.
I go in, get the procedure done, and go home. And for the next 4 days I lay in the floor puking and bleeding until with the last bit of strength I call 911. I'm rushed to the hospital and immediately given several blood transfusions due to blood loss and fluids. It takes me 4 more days recovering in the hospital before I'm released.

I get a call demanding I show up AGAIN because they've cut off my other vomit prescriptions. I count the last of the pennies and call the Uber. I show up. I go in and explain to the Dr. what HE did TO me a few months back.
Then I explain that ever since HE screwed me up I STILL hadn't recovered and have lost 40 pounds. Unable to eat. Puking at LEAST 4 times a day EVERY day.

He starts to calmly tell me about Ensure as if it's the first time I'd ever heard of it. THAT did it. I cut his smug ass off instantly and angrily.
I stood up and said do NOT insult my intelligence dude. I mean it. I TOLD you I was BROKE existing, NOT living, on 800$ per month and you're telling me to simply piss away my g-d rent money so I can blow 10$ that I'll NEVER have on a 6 pack of liquid calories hu??

O.k. Einstein, back it up then because that's fcking brilliant man. YOU tell ME how TF you expect me to do that? On 800$ PER MONTH! Right, you CAN'T so why TF do you think I CAN!! You think I'm gonna let you make me think it's MY fault. Answer me. Cold, unfeeling stare and crickets. He KNEW he fcked up.
Then I go on and say and the next time you want to rupture my guts so I can hemorrhage internally for 4 days with your BS colonoscopy we CAN do it again,.............but, it's gonna be NEXT time I'm already in the hospital. Understand? Herr Doktor.

IN the hospital so I won't have to come back when, not IF, I start hemorrhaging again. Got it? Good. He leaves without responding. Why? Because THERE IS no response to stated facts.

His assistant comes in and I told I can leave. I'm stopped at the front desk to be told I have new, better, and more puke medication called in to the pharmacy <--that actually IS huge.

I was still pretty hot as I was leaving, that insult thing really got to me because it was so out of touch with reality. Pure fantasy. Luckily the waiting room was empty when she said this:
"And the Dr. wants you back in here in 6 weeks".
My demeanor immediately changes. I zero in on her now and make a bee line back to the desk. I lean in and tell her:

"Lady, it took me 3 months of saving pennies to come for THIS bunch of nothing. I told that (angry point 👈at door) MF just now what my finances are, now I'll tell you. I'm a QMB patient. Pre-paid for already. YOU can't keep charging me just because of that. THE only reason I'm alive today is because of QMB. You guys are trying to abuse that.
I'm FAR FAR below the official poverty level. IF he wants to see me again I have a computer and you guys can make a video call because I can get just as much out of that as I can from what I got today by coming here. NOTHING. Except losing every penny I have. So keep your appointment card, and call me if ya'll ever figure out how I can afford all these trips and cases of Ensure on 800$ per month and I'll do the same day. Or don't call at all with any more financial INSULTS. Unless it's for a video Dr. visit. Good day"

And I was gone. Yes, I DO feel bad for going off on her but I just restrained myself from this exact insane BS moments ago. From her boss. Does he teach this BS? I hear it once, then immediately the same BS again! C-mone man. Don't tell me to do what YOU could NEVER do. I'm human too ya know.
I don't know what to expect now. I'm lucky I wasn't arrested.

I couldn't of stopped myself from saying what little I did say to save my life, I know that. And I also know that believe it or not, that WAS complete control and serene stoicism compared to the chaos erupting in my head as this sh*t was happening. You'd be real impressed with my self control IF you knew, especially when you consider exactly what I was uh, 'controlling'.
Ya dig.

I just don't know what a guy is supposed to do when I have my life threatened by ignorant remarks. Then the blame too? I go in self defense mode out of instinct. And now 12 million more are joining me under the same circumstances?

My own QMB status is being threatened, all because of these maga trash? Man, this is social suicide. This is gonna end real real bad for a lot of people. That was bad what I went through today, wait till tomorrow. What then if it only gets worse. WTF?
Maga though, isn't it hu? Yea, maga. They ARE exactly who is doing this and ONLY maga. Hmmm. Yea, o.k. then.
Anyway.
Where IS that Luigi dude at anyway? What IS his bail? Isn't he still in a low security holding facility?
Ya'll look out for one another.
Now, thank you ONLY maga, we have failing health, no health care, more and worse, poverty, price gouging, starvation, eviction, and those of us with NOTHING, obviously have far far TOO MUCH. That's what maga says anyway. Just maga. No one, and nothing else is to blame for EVERY last bit of it.
Maga the stooges of the 3%.